The Good and the Bitter-ness of the Journey

and what is the exceeding greatness of his power toward us who believe, according to the working of his great might that he worked in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly places, Eph 1:19-20

Recently, during a dream I heard and audible voice say “Ephesians-the breakfast of champions.” Since that time I have been seeking – searching out this book to discover what it is that the Lord wants to reveal to me and I also believe that this little book is “the” book for the remainder of my life.  While meditating on the scripture above I began to see that God wants me to know and understand this same exceeding great power that He used when He raised Christ from the dead.  I was struck with the realization that the only way that I would come to know, understand, and experience His resurrection power would be for there to be a need for its manifestation-demonstration to be made known.  This means that there would need to be a great loss-death. Death in such a manner as to cause one to lose all hope, to become totally disillusioned, the loss of dreams-expectations, the shattering-crumbling of one’s world, becoming over whelmed with fear, grief, and or feelings of failure. An experience where one goes from being enraptured with great joy, delight, exuberance, and then suddenly plummeting into the deepest darkness ever with no hope of deliverance. 
 
If I were one of the disciples during the days of Jesus I believe that I would have experienced some of those very feelings/thoughts from the time of the last supper up till the time that Jesus appeared in the room where they were all gathered together locked behind closed doors for fear, dread, dismay, disillusionment, despair, and in fact fearing for their lives because they were followers of Jesus Christ.  That interval of time between Jesus’ capture in the garden and His resurrection had to have been the darkest, most despairing, hopeless, time in the lives of His disciples.  Those who had walked so closely with him, those who had experienced such unimaginable and astounding deeds and seen such mighty miracles to the point where it is stated that were they all written in a book the world could not contain them, those who each perhaps had their own ideas of how and what things were going to be like when the Lord Jesus would begin to reign, rule, and establish Himself as King. Those disciples who had walked so closely to truth and life that as far as they were concerned there was nothing and no one else, (Joh 6:67  So Jesus said to the Twelve, "Do you want to go away as well?" Joh 6:68  Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom we shall go? You have the words of eternal life), then for it all to be snatched away in a matter of hours, their whole world crumbled. Of course one would say but they were told by Jesus that His death would occur, they were told that He would be raised up in 3 days, and that they should have understood and not wavered or doubted. It is so easy to sit back upon reading their story and say what they should or should not have done, said, or felt.  I refuse to take that position or voice that opinion because I have learned from experience that the same road that they walked is a required road in the school of training and the tools of His trade are the same for such a one who is chosen to follow Jesus in this day and age.  He is the same today as He was yesterday.  The good of it all is that their reunion with Jesus after His resurrection was not one of rebuke. He did not enter into the room with scolding eyes or a condescending tone. He did not chastise them for their failure to believe. Instead of causing them to feel even more defeated, oppressed, and depressed, He brought light into their darkness. He restored their courage. He restored their hope. His presence raised them up out of the bondage of fear and soon catapulted them into great faith.  Had they not each had their own personal experience of defeat / death for example, Peter and his denial, Thomas and his doubt, and let’s not forget how they all fled from the garden there would have been no need or opportunity for a manifestation of the power of God’s resurrection. The presence of the resurrected Lord revived, restored, reconciled, redeemed, all hope and more.

This journey has cost me greatly and I too, like the disciples, find myself locked behind a door of despair. My companions have been those of hopelessness, defeat, oppression, depression, ridicule, fear, lost friends, dreams, expectations, simply put, a shattered-crumbled world.  But all is not lost because had I not entered into this classroom-school of training, I would not have the opportunity to experience or witness the exceeding greatness of His power to those who believe! AND I DO!!!!!

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. “Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2Co 12:9

The Bible says we are to taste and see that the Lord is good. I believe that cloaked within this good is a bitter herb (Exo 12:8). Jesus, Himself, while on the cross endured the bitter-ness (as the sacrificial Lamb) as required of Him by the Father in order to fulfill God’s purpose on the earth.  The disciples had to endure the bitter-ness of His death those three days that they were separated from Him.  And I am enduring this bitter-ness which is before me during this journey for a season. BUT, I am guaranteed resurrection because Jesus LIVES, I live! The same power that raised Him from the dead, the same resurrected LORD who came into the room where they were has come into my room. I will live and not die in defeat or despair and declare the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

  that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death,Php 3:10

 Until He Returns / Timbra

Lord, I want to KNOW you

Genuine love must be proven as genuine and it’s proven under pressure over time. ~Mike Bickle

When the music fades, all is stripped away,

And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that’s of worth
That will bless your heart
I’ll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself,
Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within,
Through the way things appear
You’re looking into my heart
I’m coming back to the heart of worship
And it’s all about You
It’s all about you, Jesus
I’m sorry, Lord for the thing I’ve made it
When it’s all about You
It’s all about You, Jesus….The Heart of Worship, Matt Redman

… so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith--that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.  Eph 3:17-19-ESV

How often have the words of this song burst forth from my heart like a mighty rushing river as I yearned for them to be true. They would flow out of my mouth and over my lips causing me to fall at times to my knees in tears and agony desiring to truly worship God in spirit and in truth. The impact of those words was preceded by years of praying certain scriptures out of Ephesians chapters 1 and 3. During my prayer closet days (literal closet) I would weep over a makeshift altar asking that the love of Christ would be rooted and grounded in my heart by faith. I wanted the eyes of my understanding to be enlightened; I wanted to know the exceeding greatness of God’s power towards those who believe. Unknowingly, at that time, I was not aware of the divine set up that was set in motion by God thru His Spirit for these prayers to be answered. I was clueless of the process of how such truths are cultivated within the heart of the believer.

For instance, asking to have the love of Christ “rooted” and “grounded” denotes digging deeply, plowing, uprooting before rooting can take place, it requires grinding, compacting, and consolidating, all of which involves PRESSURE.  And then there is the desire to return to a heart of worship because you have truly come to see that it is “ALL ABOUT JESUS" and with this convicting revelation comes the STRIPPING.

As I’ve walked this journey this past year the word of God has been exactly what it says it is, a two-edge sword, dividing asunder soul and spirit. It has been a light exposing hidden darkness, a balm of healing for the wounded spirit, a refuge in times of trouble, an anchor for my soul, my saving grace, and more. This journey is a part of that divine set up which began in that prayer closet back in 1983.  My heart has been led down a path that has uncovered-revealed, excavated-uprooted, such things within me that has brought me to a divine halt and I shall go no further until things are resolved. I’ve reached a crossroad. I can either take the pathways of “BELIEF” (believing) or “KNOW” (knowing) or the one that unites the two together as one.

I’ve often taught that one of my scariest scriptures is the one out of Matthew 7 where it is said by some that they did all manner of things in Jesus’ name yet He says to them to depart from Him because He never knew them.  This troubles me because they “believed” therefore they were able to do and achieve such accomplishments as those that were mentioned in the scripture. Therefore, I’ve trembled over this and sought to not be counted amongst such a group but to be known of Christ and to know Him as well.

The stripping and pressure that I’ve experienced this year has made me aware that I truly believe in the WORD of God. I have faith in the WORD of God. I trust in the WORD of God. I am committed to the WORD of God. I am fully persuaded that God is the WORD, the WORD is God and that He is faithful to His WORD. Now that this is understood let me reveal my problem. My problem is that during this season of extreme pressure and stripping I have discovered that my head and my heart believes and knows the truths of God’s word but one truth was not found in my heart. I found myself unable to verbalize that I knew that God loved me. That’s right! I believe that He loves me because His WORD tells me so. My Mind knows and believes beyond any shadow of doubt that God loves me because He is love. He can do nothing nor be anything other than who He is. I believe with my head that He loves me and this belief is good. This belief will in fact enable me to live a life of faith as a believer and God would be pleased (Heb 11:6). But this shocking revelation brought forth by the sharp sword of the Lord opened my eyes to see that there are two places that a believer can live out of, the mind (soul) or heart (spirit) or I can let His word have its perfect work in me and the two can become ONE.  In John 17:3, Jesus did not pray that I would believe in God; His prayer was that I would know God. Believing and knowing are two separate entities. There has to be a convergence of the two in order for this great love of Christ to be rooted and grounded in my heart by faith.

I shudder to think that had I not been stripped this past year of all that I deemed meaningful too and for my life that I would have remained clueless of this truth. Because of my beliefs and faith I would have continued to live, teach, preach, and walk with Christ being fully persuaded with my mind and heart of His word yet having areas of disunity between the two. I give honor to the patient and longsuffering God who planted those prayers in seed form within my heart and although I’ve fallen short, grappled with fear, let my tears become my food, wrestled with doubt and unbelief, and accused Him falsely; He never let me go and has purposed to honor His word and my deep cry. LORD, I want to know you. LORD, I don’t solely want to believe in your love for me, I want to know this love that you have for me and know that I love you with all my mind, strength, soul, my whole heart.

I choose the pathway which leads to convergence!

Beverly ~Timbra

Where You Go I Go

Don’t ask me to leave you and turn back. I will go wherever you go and live wherever you live.  Your people will be my people, and your God will be my God.  I will die where you die and will be buried there.  May the LORD punish me severely if I allow anything but death to separate us! ~Ruth 1:16-17

The words "where you go I go" were the very ones that rang repeatedly within my spirit when Holy Spirit began leading me to move to Kansas. For a long time I had resisted but this stirring was final and I could obey or ignore (turn aside) and remain where I was and He would permit it. But by now my heart’s longing and need for Him made it impossible to want anything less than being in His presence.  I knew that I could not and cannot live without Him.

In the story of Ruth, Naomi’s name actually means “pleasant, pleasing, pleasurable, agreeable,” it was she who asked that she be called Mara which meant bitter. In writing this I have chosen to use the name by which she was known of the LORD and not the one that she called herself. From this point on Naomi will represent Holy Spirit and the humble and loyal, Ruth will represent those who are looked upon as poor, fatherless, sojourners, foreigners, widows, castaways, outcasts, etc.

One of the requirements of a disciple when following Jesus is His command to leave ALL. It necessitates a total abandonment to everything that you rely upon for comfort, strength, and security including family and friends (Matt 19:29).  This reality and truth confronts you and causes you to either make the decision to continue on, make excuses, or return back to what is familiar. This I can confirm because I have come to that crossroad several times this past year.  Following Christ is no joke; what comes to mind is the story in the Bible of the young man who asked Jesus if he could return and bury his father and Jesus’ reply was let the dead bury their own dead (Matt 8:22). As for Ruth although, she was a gentile, she had learned of God through her relationship with Naomi (Holy Spirit). This relationship had brought about such a love in the heart of Ruth for Naomi (Holy Spirit) that she refused to leave her and return to her own people when encouraged to do so. She was willing to leave ALL in order to remain in the presence of Naomi (Holy Spirit).  Her cry was that nothing less than death could separate the two of them.

Ruth would soon learn that this would be no easy journey for she now found herself amongst the chosen people of God. A gentile woman who had worshipped idols, one who did not belong, one who was considered to be less than, a poor widow with no chance at all of finding love amongst this group of people. Nevertheless, her loyalty to Naomi (Holy Spirit) along with her heart’s attitude of a servant gave her the strength to remain faithful in the midst of her circumstances. Unbeknown to Ruth, God was setting her up for something beyond anything that she could have ever imagined. She was being positioned to receive that which God declares in His word to be the exceeding, abundantly, above all that she would ever dare to ask or hope (Eph 3:20).

Ruth did not let her gentile status amongst the chosen ones keep her from obeying and following the instructions of Naomi (Holy Spirit) when she was told to go out and glean in the fields.  Gleaning is the practice of gathering leftovers of grain, grapes, or other fruit after the harvesters have harvested the field. It was required by law that leftovers were left behind for the poor, fatherless, widows, sojourners, and foreigners. In spite of Ruth's poverty and status word of her loyalty, love, servant hood, to Naomi and her humility had not gone unnoticed. Holy Spirit was leading her into a spacious place of favor because she was pleasing to God. I’m sure the taunting’s of the other women who were gleaning in the field was not easy to deal with especially when it became obvious that she was being favored by the redeemer as well for he had commanded protection for her and that extra grain be left behind for her to collect.

Unsuspectingly, Ruth’s journey was about to come to a significant change.  But before the change occurs it will require a greater death to self-prophetically speaking. The season of gleaning was now leading to the “threshing floor.”  Threshing floors were set on hilltops so that they were exposed to the wind that blew away the chaff. The harvested grain was laid out on the threshing floor and was threshed by oxen driven over it, pulling a threshing sledge equipped with sharp teeth dragged over it, or by beating with sticks. Wooden forks were then used to throw the grain into the air so that the wind would blow off the chaff while the heavier grain fell back to the floor. Believe me as I wrote this my insides quaked as I related to the pressures, pain, shame, loss, loneliness, agony, and everything else that the tormentors (tools for sifting and separating) are permitted to do during the process. If the wheat and barley could speak I’m sure that during the threshing process we would hear a tremendous amount of wailing, screaming objections, but when it all settles down that which falls at the feet of the harvester is the valuable wheat freed from the worthless chaff.

Holy Spirit’s (Naomi) next request would be for Ruth to change her appearance by ridding herself of the old clothing, take a bath, anoint herself with perfume (oil), put on her finest clothes, and go to the THRESHING FLOOR. Let me digress here for a moment and say that prophetically what I see here is the same as what took place with Jesus. Before His finest hour (resurrection) His feet were washed, He was anointed with perfumed oil, He was flogged unmercifully, and afterwards they gambled for His clothing. The THRESHING FLOOR would be the final place where Ruth’s total obedience and submission would bring forth God’s divine plan for her life and the fulfillment of historical prophecy.  The threshing process would result in this poor, gentile, widowed, second class citizen of the community to be ushered into the genealogy of Jesus, Himself.

Women were not allowed to be at the threshing floor.  Her presence there could have easily been misunderstood but her obedience in following the instructions of Naomi (Holy Spirit) was in no way unlawful. According to the social custom of that day a girl could not propose to a man but she was free to indicate that she was interested in being married. One of those ways would be to warm the man’s feet.  Holy Spirit (Naomi) instructed Ruth to uncover Boaz’ feet, lie down and wait for him (the Redeemer) to tell her what to do.  What happens next is phenomenally prophetic (as far as I’m concerned). The story reveals that at MIDNIGHT (Matt 25:6) Boaz, the redeemer, was startled and awoke to find a woman lying at his feet. Her willingness to lay prostrate, the position of rest, at the feet of this man was a display of her utmost loyalty, humility, and submission.  Upon revealing her identity she proceeds to ask that he would now spread his wings over her and the rest of the story is “HIStory.” Her life was forever changed.

This story gives me great hope. As one who chose to follow Holy Spirit (my Naomi) on a journey that required abandoning all that gave comfort, security, and strength, as one who left family and friends to follow Jesus’ leading, as one who now lives a life of gleaning (would that my attitude be more like that of Ruth), as one who has submitted to the threshing I now choose to go beyond sitting at the feet of my REDEEMER-JESUS. I have chosen to lay myself prostrate, in the position of rest, uncover my Lord’s feet, and warm them with my presence and WAIT because it’s almost MIDNIGHT!

Behold the Bridegroom cometh!!!!!!!!

Until He Returns,
Timbra (Beverly)

His Leadership is Perfect

He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Psa 23:3-4

His leadership is perfect. Although that statement is true one should not take it to mean that I always like the way He leads. My recent venture through the valley of the shadow of death was not a very pleasant one. As I looked back over this past years’ journal entries I can see where it has taken quite some time, as far as I’m concerned, for me to pass through it.

Amazingly, now that I’ve stopped my bleating the Shepherd has had the opportunity to point something out to me that I had not seen before.  While reading Psalm 23 He spoke of how His leading me in “paths of righteousness” actually led me into and through the valley of the shadow of death.  I’m not afraid to admit that sometimes it takes me longer to put two and two together and that’s two that I had not placed together. My understanding of the “paths of righteousness” was that He would lead me in ways that would keep me from going in the wrong direction. Never did I connect the valley of the shadow of death as being one of the paths of righteousness. Now that I’m a little wiser I must say that I’m also very grateful and thankful for the Shepherd’s rod and staff that were instrumental in my survival through the valley.

The Rod for Protection, the Staff for Guidance

The valley of the shadow of death comprises many crooks, turns, cliffs, and even side roads that a sheep could find itself entangled, snared, or lost on. There are also predators lurking waiting for an opportunity to pounce upon a sheep that has become lame, weary, weak, or simply lags behind.  In my broken and weak state I found that His rod not only protected me from the predators of fear and death but broke the power of the lies that resulted from the onslaught of the enemy’s boisterous and tormenting howling. His rod also brought correction to my misguided thoughts.

Just as it is always darkest before the dawn there is a place while walking through the valley that is very dark; so dark that this sheep could no longer see the Shepherd. Following Him required the use of my ears only.  How often have I read “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me” (John 10:27) yet it never dawned on me that I would have to walk through a season of hearing only. I prefer seeing and following NOT hearing and following.  I learned that if I am to know Him on a deeper and more intimate level that I can’t be led by my eyes only but by the hearing of the ear as well. I must be able to hear what the Spirit is saying.  This training came by way of the staff. During this darkness when my eyes could no longer see the Shepherd’s leading I had to learn to listen as he tapped along the way. I had to “hear” and “listen” for the sound. The sound wasn’t one of loud pounding and neither was it louder than the voices of the enemy. It was as the still small voice that is mentioned in the word. I have to admit that at one point I became very dismayed over the fact that the Shepherd refused to shout above the enemy’s blatant badgering’s but this too proved to be indicative of His perfect leadership.

The testings’ of this valley brought about great brokenness but as the Shepherd promised; I discovered some hidden treasures in darkness. (Isa 45:3)…. TRULY, HIS LEADERSHIP IS PERFECT!


Until He Returns,
Timbra

Pierce the Darkness

2Co 4:3  And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled only to those who are perishing.

2Co 4:4  In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.

2Co 4:5  For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake.

2Co 4:6  For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

 During my Prayer Room service hours as I sat praying for a young African American man whom I saw pacing and praying.  I began to think of other young African American men and their struggles especially my sons and soon it led to my crying out to God to save my family members.  The scripture that stood out to me was verse 6 of the above mentioned scriptures. Suddenly, the revelation that God’s light shines out of darkness came alive with a greater clarity of truth and I began to pray God, PIERCE the DARKNESS!!!!!

Gen 1:1  In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth.

Gen 1:2  The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.

Gen 1:3  And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light.

Although, I could take off on a rabbit trail here as to why (my own beliefs-opinions) the earth was without form and void I will remain on course.  In reading the verses mentioned it shows God spoke-commanded light to come forth out of darkness.  We know that God, Himself, is Light and in Him there is no darkness; in saying this it shows that darkness can in no way overshadow light.  Light always dispels darkness. So in reading the scriptures and several others that were referenced my heart became encouraged, strengthened, and hopeful in God’s desire to deliver those whom I was praying for and calling forth out of all darkness.

Act 26:13  At midday, O king, I saw on the way a light from heaven, brighter than the sun, that shone around me and those who journeyed with me.

Act 26:14  And when we had all fallen to the ground, I heard a voice saying to me in the Hebrew language, 'Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads.'

Act 26:15  And I said, 'Who are you, Lord?' And the Lord said, 'I am Jesus whom you are persecuting.

Act 26:16  But rise and stand upon your feet, for I have appeared to you for this purpose, to appoint you as a servant and witness to the things in which you have seen me and to those in which I will appear to you,

Act 26:17  delivering you from your people and from the Gentiles--to whom I am sending you

Act 26:18  to open their eyes, so that they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.'

 The power of God’s ability to “PIERCE THE DARKNESS” can be seen above as Paul shares with King Agrippa what took place with him on the road to Damascus.  Before Saul’s (Paul’s) encounter he was so sure that he was in fact a servant of God and he was determined to annihilate and rid the nation (Jewish) of all whom had become followers of Jesus Christ.  Saul believed that he was the “enlightened” one and that all others had been deceived and believed in a false doctrine. You could say that he was under the conviction that their eyes were darkened / closed and his were opened.  It wasn’t until he had an encounter with the “light” of heaven piercing his darkness, blinding him (closing his eyes) to his religious error and opening his eyes (enlightening his understanding) of the truth of the glory of God in the face of Christ.

Worthy rabbit trail – confirmation taking place at the moment: As I sit here writing this a chorus is being song by Misty Edwards and it is: Praise the Lord oh my soul and all my deepest parts, give praise to the One who pulled you out of darkness; He pulled you out of darkness.

This is what I was asking God when saying to Him “PIERCE THE DARKNESS.”  I want God to bring my family out of darkness---God loves me and I love the way He directs me in prayer!!!!!

In these following chapters and verses (2 Cor 4:3-4; 2 Thess 2:9-10; Matt 13:15) we see reasons for being ensnared in darkness  to both the god of this world, the lawless one (same as god of this world), and self (because of the choices that we make). It is the same old story. The same enemy who was in the garden in the beginning is in the garden of our hearts today speaking lies and causing doubt which leads to disobedience and death.  He opposes and exalts himself above everything that is called God or that is worship unto the true and living God. His kingdom is that of chaos, confusion, without form and void, deception, and DARKNESS! He is the lawless one, the one who gives the false impression that everything and anything goes and a man has the right to do what is right in his own eyes. But that’s the lie, the deception, the darkness. He blinds you to TRUTH. The truth that in doing so you will pay a dear price, your life – death!

Light causes transformation:

2Co 3:18  And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.

In the death, burial, and resurrection of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, we see where the veil of the temple was rent apart from the very top to its bottom by the hand of Almighty God. This spoke symbolically that there is no longer any separation between us and God. God, Himself, has made a way for us to come forth out of darkness and into the light of His presence through His Son.  As we allow the WORD of TRUTH to PIERCE our DARKNESS and renew our minds (unveil our face) we will surely behold the glory of the Lord and be transformed into the same image.  We become who God made us to be from creations beginning.  “IN HIS IMAGE AND LIKENESS – Gen 1:26.

 
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!!!!! AMEN!!!!!

Until He Returns....
Beverly (Timbra-Isa 56:7)

The Transition Shawl

Transition: movement, passage, or change from one position, state, stage, subject, concept, to another; CHANGE.

On yesterday while fulfilling my Prayer Room service hours I was passed the message below by Anita Hensley, my Native American, Mohican friend who also made the “transition shawl.” I was told to take the shawl home for a while and use it in prayer if I wanted to. Of course, I wanted too…you all know me…I love tools and this would prove to be one.

My meditation began with my wrapping the “transition shawl” around my shoulders and thinking that I would read of the time when the glory of the Lord filled the temple and the priests could not stand to minister. Unbeknown to me this was a divine set up by Holy Spirit. While searching for the passage I came upon Exodus 40:34-38

34 Then the cloud covered the tent of meeting, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle. 35 Moses could not enter the tent of meeting because the cloud had settled on it, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle.

36 In all the travels of the Israelites, whenever the cloud lifted from above the tabernacle, they would set out; 37 but if the cloud did not lift, they did not set out—until the day it lifted. 38 So the cloud of the LORD was over the tabernacle by day, and fire was in the cloud by night, in the sight of all the house of Israel during all their travels.

In reading these verses Holy Spirit reminded me of my recent post “Direct My Heart into Your Love” about the new wine being put in new wineskin. The fact that these scriptures speak of how the cloud (glory/presence/spirit) of God was settled (upon) the tabernacle and that the tabernacle was “filled” with the glory (spirit-presence) reveals the desire of God (Spirit being upon and within) to do the same with us, the earthly tabernacle. As I pondered this the divine set-up began to unfold. I found myself thinking of how the Israelites had so many signs and wonders done amongst them, so much evidence that God was for them yet they fell into such unbelief that it caused there to be a veil placed upon their hearts-minds in knowing their God. Then the blow was struck, CONVICTION. For months I have sought after a sign from the Lord as to whether or not I had made the right decision to move here. For months I have battled the demons of doubt and unbelief in spite of the many signs that the Lord has given to assure me of His hand being not only upon this move but my life. Oh, how I have cried rivers (really rivers of tears) night after night, day after day over having stepped out of the boat to follow the Lord. Then another blow of CONVICTION – John 20:29 was given and I was told that if the Israelites failure to believe and acknowledge God’s favor and goodness towards them for 40 years led to their being snared by doubt and unbelief how much more could this happen to me if I did not step out of this place and walk this journey by faith.

 

29 Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”

Conviction had done its job and now I was broken and repentant. Afterwards, God’s loving-kindness began to lift me out of the valley of CONVICTION and REPENTANCE to the banqueting table. I was told to now place the shawl over my head and read aloud certain passages from Psalm 91 and the entire book of Ruth. In Psalm 91 Holy Spirit highlighted what I call the “I will’s of God” so I prayed them back to the Father. But the most awesome event of all while feasting at the table was the reading of the book of Ruth.  I have read this book often during the 28 years of my “being” saved and each time the Lord reveals something that I had not seen before. Here I am sitting-covered in a “transition shawl” and in verse 15 of chapter 3 it reads:

15 He also said, “Bring me the shawl you are wearing and hold it out.” When she did so, he poured into it six measures of barley and put it on her. Then he went back to town.

Now, I am weeping again but not in despair but in sheer joy of how the Lord favors me and has determined to show me His great love. At this point in the story Ruth is about to have another transition in her life take place. One of her transitions was her choosing to leave her people and follow Naomi back to Bethlehem. Once she is in Bethlehem she remains faithful to her mother-in-law and does exactly as she is told and goes and gleans whatever is left behind by the shearers of the field so that the two of them will have food.  In her obedience and love for Naomi she has placed herself in the position for another transition to take place (by faith) at the feet of Boaz; a transition that would place her in the lineage of Jesus (Matt 1:5).

Of course, I removed the shawl and held it out to receive by faith all that “Boaz,” my redeemer, (Jesus) has for me knowing that as Ruth; He has so much more in store. One day those of you who are walking with me and those of you watching me travel along this journey will also share in my joy as those who shared in the joy of Naomi when the Lord restored and blessed her through Ruth & Boaz.

Until He Returns…..

~Timbra

Direct My Heart into Your Love

One of the many illustrations that Jesus used when answering questions of those who were either troubled with His way of doing things or merely trying to catch Him in a fault was the illustration of the new wine & new wineskins.  Though this illustration came about in regards to “fasting” what has captured my attention is the statement that Jesus made when He said “new wine is ­put in new wineskins.”

Mat 9:17 Nor do men put new wine into old wineskins; else the wineskins burst, and the wine runs out, and the wineskins perish. But they put new wine into new wineskins, and both are preserved together.

 Although Jesus is using an illustration to explain to John’s disciples why His disciples were not fasting at that time; I am of the impression that He is also speaking of something beyond mere fasting. This something more is the indwelling Holy Spirit (new wine) within the new man-new creation (new wineskin). There is much said and / or written on the subject of the promise of the Father whereby the “Holy Spirit is poured out upon us” - Joel 2:28 and Acts 2:17 and though this is good there is more. Understanding the importance of the Spirit of God being upon and within is vitally important to the new man / new creation. God has faithfully kept His word and “poured” out His Spirit not only on the day of Pentecost but many today have experienced this outpouring yet I see why Jesus also made the statement of not putting new wine in old wineskins. When we fail to understand the need for the Holy Spirit’s indwelling presence and merely experience the outpouring of the Spirit we can easily end up operating as psychics, palm readers, false prophets, false teachers, and more.  The outpouring of Holy Spirit is an “anointing” with power and the enemy knows this and this is why he would love for us to remain blind to our need for the indwelling work of the Spirit of God within us. The purpose of Holy Spirit being put (new wine) within us is to keep us from perishing and becoming prey for the enemy which is what he desires. We know that God calls those things that be not as though they are –Rom 4:17 and we also know that God says old things have passed away and behold all things have been made new – 2Cor 5:17 but there is still a transformation process needed (Rom 12:1) along with the working out of our salvation until the day we die or Jesus returns. The good news is that God has promised to not only pour out His Spirit but to put His Spirit in us.

 Eze 11:19  And I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within you. And I will remove the stony heart out of their flesh, and will give them a heart of flesh,

Eze 36:27  And I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you shall keep My judgments and do them.

 Jas 4:5  Or do you suppose it is to no purpose that the Scripture says, "He yearns jealously over the spirit that he has made to dwell in us"?

Holy Spirit has been given to do more than give us experiences of the presence of God coming upon our flesh, He has also been sent to help us.  The Spirit of God within me is my only hope of staying on course, on the path of righteousness. Having the Spirit of God within me convicting me of my sins, giving me understanding, wisdom, counsel, knowledge and revelation of God and His ways keeps me rooted in the love of God. I can settle for fleeting moments of experiencing the anointing upon me or I can live in continuous communion with God through His Spirit resulting in an overflow of the anointing and becoming clothed with His presence (which is what I am pursuing). The Spirit of God dwelling on the inside of me gives me direct access to the mind of God for it is written “  Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God” – 1 Cor 2:9-12.  God gives us the freedom to choose whether or not we will give Him lordship of our lives and yield to the work of the Spirit within us or we can be lord of our own lives and exploit His anointing for sheer pleasurable experiences. Only by and through the work of the Holy Spirit within me will I be able to do that which the Lord has purposed in His heart for me to do before time began. Only by and through the work of the Holy Spirit within me will I become a whole hearted lover of the Son of God. Oh, that you, Holy Spirit would work the work of the Lord in me and cause my heart to be DIRECTED into the love of God and the patience of Christ.

2Thess 3:5

 I pray Father God that you would consider me new wineskin and put new wine within me...and take me from glory to glory…

Knowing God’s mind is… knowing God’s heart…knowing God’s heart is knowing God’s mind…..

Until He Returns

Timbra